...and I'd like to clip her wings. Yeah, that's the way I feel right now. Not a feeling that I'm used to. Not even a feeling that I know I even like yet. But it's how I feel...
So what do you do when you realize a crush is more than a crush. What do you do when that feeling has set in? Do you swallow pride and lay it all on the line? Do you hold it in so it will not create an awkwardness that will become a ticking time bomb in a great friendship? Yep, been at all those places...but oh well...
Until recently, had a bad taste in my mouth for liking anyone. Just brings back bad memories of selfishness and any other bad adjective you can think of. I wasn't the greatest boyfriend and I can admit it now looking back. In my mind, I felt I was perfect, but was nowhere close. I feel it's almost time to change that. Not quite yet, but almost, lol. It's been slightly over 5 years since my last true relationship. But before time will tell since my mind changes every now and then on that subject.
Welcome to being a man trapped in the platonic zone with no way out. It's the gift and the curse. We know that gift, but the curse puts you in a place that leaves you w/ moment of emptiness. Feeling of being unwanted, even though it's not completely true, but you're left with that feeling. It's hard to listen to a woman's problems and not want to be the man that will lift her chin, kiss those lips and tell her you'll make her day better. But as an lifelong only child, I live in a fantasy world. As I sit here, flipping thru channels, finding a podcast to listen to, I feel it's time for my fantasies to come true. But only if the stars align and give me my way.
I won't hold my breath....Salut...
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